The Journey To Self; Chronicles Of A Self Love Enthusiast (Part 2) - Marriage And Motherhood Have Me Like......

Speaking of marriage and motherhood?
And as a firstborn again?
Whew!

(Oh and btw if you missed the Part 1 of my #RoadToDiscovery, chronicles of a self love enthusiast tale, please check HERE )

So anyway, Marriage is something that I personally have to be sincerely 100% convinced I have to go into.
Then motherhood too?
Ah!

Alltycreations

The constant worries;
The scary moments;
The almost choking from food moments;
You Know The;
The I took my eyes away for just one second and he almost took a sip of engine oil or gulped that tiny bottle of Eucalyptus oil you left by yourside for a second, while tending to something else, or put bead in his nose moments;

The sick moments; where you may most likely have to rush them to the clinic because they are suffering from constipation or they are throwing up!
Oh the vomit phobia you have;
Damn!
The teenage moments aka The we have to talk about sex moments;
The teachable moments, where you try not to influence them with how you think, but let them independently think for themselves;
How?
So many moments mehn.

So many moments deeply rooted and determined by how much you love yourself first and how much you know who you are!

Then, being a firstborn again doesn't even now make these two things that enticing or convincing.
I mean they can both be "cute" but
Having to be responsible for other people but yourself AGAIN?
All the things to consider are much😩
The sacrifices,
No more personal space, blablabla.
Sigh.

How do or have a lot of you, done these two so effortlessly well?

Because I see that
Marriage and Motherhood can take so much away from you or deplete you as a human being, much less a woman, THAN give, under the wrongest circumstances.
Feels like marriage was meant to benefit Men more;
But hey like I said.... under imbalanced conditions/wrongest circumstances!

Hence, why I'm not even in the slightest hurry to make these two decisions.

Anyway,
The day(s) I decide to do these two, then *e gats* mean say I finally became convinced I found someone capable of offering and committing himself wholeheartedly to doing both with me: as my partner in crime literally speaking!

It means I must have started feeling worthy enough to literally give life to someone else and being able to love someone else to the point of facing the possibilities of ever having to lose them!
Whew!

It means I really must have gotten to that point where I feel both these things are so worth it to be very honest, 100% feeling whole, worthy and capable of facing absolutely any challenge with someone else by my side;
A 100% supportive someone who makes me less anxious/worried about delving into both.

That being said,

I really really hail anyone who has been brave enough to do these two!
Y'all are the greatest!
Again,
How do you do it?
Xx...


P.S If I "gbagaun", I "Gbagaun"